However, it's got to a stage where I don't think it's worth stressing about all the issues, or dwell on the things that have upset me, but instead to just be happy, and change how I look at things so that they aren't negatives anymore - but positives! It's not easy to do, but I've found that by making little changes and tiny steps forward, the difficult moments are fading away, and my confidence is growing.
I think looking back over the last few months, I can tell I haven't been myself - I know why and but this issue is no longer relevant and to be honest I'd rather not go back there ever again, because I was so wrapped up in something that become broken and took me to a very low place, but I'm finally back, and I'm in a very happy place.
It's a shame really, when you get yourself so wound up in the bad, negative things that you miss a long period of time when you could be happy and getting on with every day life, that's why I'm so glad I came back on the other side. However, in no means was I ever really low or depressed to put it in other terms, I was just finding it hard to balance things around me and it all seemed to be closing in. Maybe it was my exams? Maybe it was the situation I was in at the time? All I know is it was very hard to get through.
I'm not writing this post to ask for sympathy or anything of the sort I just wanted to almost make a sort of diary entry because it's been so long since I posted or even let myself see how there's always a way out of situations that may be dragging you down. I want to mark this as a new beginning in not only my blog, but how I think about things everyday. I mean there's no need to be down all the time, or look negatively.
It's key to keep your friends close, and live every moment to the fullest it can be. To be honest I don't think I would have been able to manage stress and everything else if it wasn't for my friends, they are super important - super supportive and understanding of everything I'd be lost without them.
- love you guys!
So that's it, that marks the start of new things, and who knows, you might find more posts on here now! Thanks for being so patient and thanks as always for reading,
Talk soon - Love Megan xx
