Quite a while ago I posted on here a blog post called - Finally accepting yourself. And I've been thinking that it's time to elaborate a little more and to show you all why it's important that you don't let others get in the way of your happiness no matter what.

As mentioned in the previous post, I was born with Diaplegic Cerebral Palsy. A disability which affects my balance and my ability to do certain things. It's a very hard thing to deal with sometimes, but it's just one of the facts of my life.

   Having special needs isn't the easy way of living, but they make you 1000% stronger than any other human around you. I believe that because of having them, you gain a special way of adapting yourself to daily life, living your own way and being like any other 'normal' person.

                        But wait..

what is being 'normal'? I mean the phrase gets thrown around all the time, but does it actually mean anything? The Google definition states that it means 'conforming to a standard; usual, typical, or expected.' However, is there a typical person? Everyone around us is different. Different hair colors, different sizes and so on, so there is actually no usual human. This is exactly the same for those with special needs like me. We're no different, it's just another imperfection that just happens to be slightly more noticeable.

 The only problem is, some people can't seem to grasp the concept that I'm just like any other person, or others with disabilities are the same as everyone else. Therefore this seems to allow people to discriminate against those who are a little different. And means that people seem to believe it's right to single out those who have imperfections by somewhat taking the mick out of them. Whether it be on purpose or by accident, it's just something that should not happen. The reason being, its completely wrong to isolate someone because of how they walk, or what they look like, or whether they're in a wheelchair. No one was brought on the earth to be ridiculed because they are different to how you are or how you perceive a 'normal' person to be. 
    However, that's the thing with this world. It's almost like those who have a sense of uniqueness are denied a chance of success and the opportunity to live like everyone else just because of the somewhat ignorance that covers views of everyone on the planet. TV plays a huge part in this, because they label way to much and that generates more prejudice and impacts again the perception. I mean, Is it really necessary to call us 'The Undateables' just because we have a disability?  It's a huge shame when you realise that what people say/believe to be true about those with special needs has been given to them by other people, therefore influencing how they act around us. No one is born with these views, so it just shows how judgmental the world we live in is. 

You might say that I sound bias towards pretty much everyone living in this modern day and age, but surprisingly i'm pleased to say its finally changing. 
Gone are the days that I used to hide away from my problem. Gone are programmes like 'i'm spazticus' etc, and they are now replaced by people with disabilities appearing in TV Soaps, and films. Its revealing that we are literally the same as everyone else. I would say possibly just a little bit more inspirational, because lets face, its pretty amazing competing in a sport with millions of physical things against you and coming out on top.

So lets just get one thing straight, in my eyes, its not how the person looks, how they talk, how they walk etc, its who that person is. It's their vibrant personality wanting to be seen. Its the inner determination to beat all those people who judge, stare and laugh.
 Don't be defined by what people say, because its never true, and its probably just their ignorance standing int the way of them getting to know what's behind your perfect imperfections. Do whatever you want to do, don't be denied of a happy life just because your limited to what you can do, I certainly don't and it makes me so happy to say, I am me, the girl with the little limp, who lets no one get in the way of her life.

                       

I've said it before and I'll say it again, if you use your mind, you can beat the entire world. 

Love, Megan 

 xx

taking a minute.

In all honesty I'm surprised to see myself back on here. Back writing. Back having something to share because, let's face it; its been a while. 

 

Having a clear mind set on things is something that at the best of times, is difficult to do and it has been something that I have struggled to deal with in relation to the whole blog thing. I set myself a target this year. To put myself first and make something of myself - as cliche as that sounds. And that's what I've tried to do, but in many ways I am failing at. You see, it's easy to say that you'll take more care of what you want to do, or how you want to spend your time, particularly when you have other things such as A-levels to contend with because I would say 99.9% of the time I'm sat with a revision guide on my lap with no idea as to what the heck is going on. 

That's why I disappeared. That's why haven't posted since my '2016' post. I have hardly any time to sit down, chill out or even start to think about posting on here. But whilst I say that, funnily enough I've found a little pocket of time to write something just to highlight that I am in fact, still around. 

   

Hard to believe how long I've been doing this for, ever since 2013. I mean it's no surprise I have had a gap from it. I remember when I used to try every single week to put something out there, and my standards were pretty low. That polka dot background was a classic favourite of mine. But looking over the years, our journey has  been lovely. So many changes have happened and it's been so nice to read comments and notice the number of reads go up on my posts. I really appreciate the support so far and I really hope you stick with me while I get back in the blogging swing of things.

  I'm going through a time where I'm not quite sure where we'll end up, but hopefully if we all stick together the path which we are destined to take will be lit up ready for us.

I'm making little promise that I'll be here much more often than I am now, because who knows. And I don't quite know my path yet but as I search. I'll be sure to find the right one soon. So bare with me, expect changes and I look forward to having you all help find the path in which we will take.

Love, Megan

xx

2016.

                                                           2016. What a year.

Looking back of the last 12 months, I'm almost in shock at how many amazing things I managed to do. It's crazy!
   I started the year the same as I do all the time, celebrating another birthday with a candle in a cupcake and tired eyes, and to be honest I did not think the year would be good at all - particularly after 'that' 2015. But as always, I remained optimistic and let the days unravel, but this time something was different. Yes, things happened that I never want to re live, and are better off left behind but in retrospect, they are so so tiny compared to the wild times I had which completely overwhelm the bad times.
I suppose everyone starts the year off with the mindset to be healthier, and so did I, but I really wanted to stick to it, and now I sit here 1stone and 7Ibs lighter. Which is most likely one of the best things ever! I don't really know how it happened, I suppose i've just got a habit now. I've cut so much out and I swap the bad things for the good things now, yes that means chocolate hardly makes an appearance in my diet these days. So yay me!
 
2015, was one of those years where everything that could possibly go wrong did, and quite frankly I was sick of being anxious about everything, and bored of worrying about everything, so 2016 was my year to grow in confidence and do things that were so far out of my comfort zone I would never have even thought of doing. So,to conquer what did I do? Ah yes. I went to Leeds Festival. Now, you'll probably think that I'm stupid for saying that, and think I'm a huge wimp, but to go somewhere, as busy, loud and as 'out there' as it was, is something I never ever ever thought I would do. I decided that I wasn't going to stop myself doing things because I was afraid I might make myself look silly, or say no because I didn't think I could physically do it. But, honestly I am so pleased I did it. Yes, I did fall face first in a pile of mud. Yes, I did make a fool of myself, and yes, I did ache like hell the day after but I wouldn't have wanted it any other way.
It was such a laugh, and being surrounded by loads of people who were just having an amazing time made the whole thing worthy or an out of this world experience. Filled with nothing but laughs.

Alongside the amazing experience of Leeds Fest, I went to loads more gigs and they did not let me down. It's almost as though every other weekend I've been doing something that meant I was at a gig or something similar, and it' those things which helped make my year even better.

Last year I overcame my fear of doing things I was scared of, and my anxiety is almost nonexistent. It must be the way I am, but I remember in 2015 I wouldn't even go into a shop on my own, or ask for help if I needed to find something, but now It's not even a problem. You see my whole mindset changed, I wouldn't get anywhere if I let my nerves get the better of me. I do still get anxious and worry all the time, but whereas before I would let ti stop me from doing things, I overcome it and just force myself to do it. With rescue pastels in my bag.
Oh! I almost forgot, I also got a tattoo... Nothing says you've managed to conquer your fears than getting a tattoo, obviously one you'd thought about having for years and years.

I also learnt that mistakes are okay to make. And if you happen to make them, you don't have to regret them. At the beginning of the year, I made a big one. And when I think about it now, I laugh because I should have known it wasn't the right move, but oh well. Like I said, regret nothing. I think the whole situation made me the person I am now really, as cliche as it sounds. One thing is though, I am definitely not thankful for it.
It made me realise that it is possible to be happy and stand on your own, than to feel like you have to have a 'crutch' to lean on. Independence is such a great thing to have so it is a shame to waste it away and long for something you most definitely do not need.


As the year went on, I never let the smile from my face, no matter what. The year was so good to me, I could not even tell you.

However, 2016 did have it's faults. The fact that we lost so many legends and so many talented people is so sad. When you grow up admiring people for what they have achieved and then you turn on the TV and see that they have passed away is just a huge kick in the teeth. It goes without saying that loss was a big part of 2016 and that is something that it sadly, will be remembered for.

With that thought, family is the most important thing. Being able to share all these amazing moments with those closest around me is the best feeling in the world. Without them I honestly don't know what I would do. The holiday to America was lovely, as not only was it a break, but I spent time with my family and created so many more amazing memories I was treasure forever.
It goes without saying that my friends were also a key part to making 2016 one of the best years ever. They never fail to surprise me with their kidness and support, again it means the entire world.

So, as the door closes on 2016, and re opens on 2017, I am nothing but ready. Ready for anything.and very excited to see what it brings, even those ugly parts.
I sit here, finishing this blog, with a very big smile on my face. I am back blogger. And 2017 is going to be mint.

Thankyou for all your support through the past year, even though I have hardly posted, it doesn't go unnoticed. I really appreciate the fact people actually take the time to read what I put on here.

Happy New Year. Love,

Megan 

xx