Looking back of the last 12 months, I'm almost in shock at how many amazing things I managed to do. It's crazy!
I started the year the same as I do all the time, celebrating another birthday with a candle in a cupcake and tired eyes, and to be honest I did not think the year would be good at all - particularly after 'that' 2015. But as always, I remained optimistic and let the days unravel, but this time something was different. Yes, things happened that I never want to re live, and are better off left behind but in retrospect, they are so so tiny compared to the wild times I had which completely overwhelm the bad times.
I suppose everyone starts the year off with the mindset to be healthier, and so did I, but I really wanted to stick to it, and now I sit here 1stone and 7Ibs lighter. Which is most likely one of the best things ever! I don't really know how it happened, I suppose i've just got a habit now. I've cut so much out and I swap the bad things for the good things now, yes that means chocolate hardly makes an appearance in my diet these days. So yay me!
2015, was one of those years where everything that could possibly go wrong did, and quite frankly I was sick of being anxious about everything, and bored of worrying about everything, so 2016 was my year to grow in confidence and do things that were so far out of my comfort zone I would never have even thought of doing. So,to conquer what did I do? Ah yes. I went to Leeds Festival. Now, you'll probably think that I'm stupid for saying that, and think I'm a huge wimp, but to go somewhere, as busy, loud and as 'out there' as it was, is something I never ever ever thought I would do. I decided that I wasn't going to stop myself doing things because I was afraid I might make myself look silly, or say no because I didn't think I could physically do it. But, honestly I am so pleased I did it. Yes, I did fall face first in a pile of mud. Yes, I did make a fool of myself, and yes, I did ache like hell the day after but I wouldn't have wanted it any other way.
It was such a laugh, and being surrounded by loads of people who were just having an amazing time made the whole thing worthy or an out of this world experience. Filled with nothing but laughs.
Alongside the amazing experience of Leeds Fest, I went to loads more gigs and they did not let me down. It's almost as though every other weekend I've been doing something that meant I was at a gig or something similar, and it' those things which helped make my year even better.
Last year I overcame my fear of doing things I was scared of, and my anxiety is almost nonexistent. It must be the way I am, but I remember in 2015 I wouldn't even go into a shop on my own, or ask for help if I needed to find something, but now It's not even a problem. You see my whole mindset changed, I wouldn't get anywhere if I let my nerves get the better of me. I do still get anxious and worry all the time, but whereas before I would let ti stop me from doing things, I overcome it and just force myself to do it. With rescue pastels in my bag.
Oh! I almost forgot, I also got a tattoo... Nothing says you've managed to conquer your fears than getting a tattoo, obviously one you'd thought about having for years and years.
I also learnt that mistakes are okay to make. And if you happen to make them, you don't have to regret them. At the beginning of the year, I made a big one. And when I think about it now, I laugh because I should have known it wasn't the right move, but oh well. Like I said, regret nothing. I think the whole situation made me the person I am now really, as cliche as it sounds. One thing is though, I am definitely not thankful for it.
It made me realise that it is possible to be happy and stand on your own, than to feel like you have to have a 'crutch' to lean on. Independence is such a great thing to have so it is a shame to waste it away and long for something you most definitely do not need.
As the year went on, I never let the smile from my face, no matter what. The year was so good to me, I could not even tell you.
However, 2016 did have it's faults. The fact that we lost so many legends and so many talented people is so sad. When you grow up admiring people for what they have achieved and then you turn on the TV and see that they have passed away is just a huge kick in the teeth. It goes without saying that loss was a big part of 2016 and that is something that it sadly, will be remembered for.
With that thought, family is the most important thing. Being able to share all these amazing moments with those closest around me is the best feeling in the world. Without them I honestly don't know what I would do. The holiday to America was lovely, as not only was it a break, but I spent time with my family and created so many more amazing memories I was treasure forever.
It goes without saying that my friends were also a key part to making 2016 one of the best years ever. They never fail to surprise me with their kidness and support, again it means the entire world.
So, as the door closes on 2016, and re opens on 2017, I am nothing but ready. Ready for anything.and very excited to see what it brings, even those ugly parts.
I sit here, finishing this blog, with a very big smile on my face. I am back blogger. And 2017 is going to be mint.
Thankyou for all your support through the past year, even though I have hardly posted, it doesn't go unnoticed. I really appreciate the fact people actually take the time to read what I put on here.
Happy New Year. Love,
Megan
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