it will be okay.

Sometimes, we work towards things and for one reason or another they don't work out how we planned or how we wanted them to be. And yes, it is upsetting, unnerving and more than likely knocks you back a far bit.

 

But.

 

It's okay.

 

Today's world is filled with drama around every single corner, mostly trivial stuff like the latest celebrity break up or the latest album release causing issues in some far away country. But some of it is pretty hard hitting; like the attacks around the world, or the latest health risk epidemic. With all these daily issues surrounding everyone these days, it seems that the important things in our own lives get put to one side, displaced and disregarded from our attention. A factor that 2018 still deals with. 

 

Being my age, and within my generation it's abit tricky. 

The highlights of the good old days when you spent all afternoon out with your friends, having no care in the world for anything expect making sure you lived life to the full. To when you spent ages watching people older on platforms like you tube gathering so many followers and aspired to become them. To now. Balancing coursework deadlines, exam revision and conforming to the social media standard of living - as well as juggling a part time job and still having no time to re live those happier days. Many before us had it easier I'd say, but that simply doesn't matter.

What I mean is without realising all we seem to do is conform, mirror and follow. And it's the reason we're so oblivious.

 

The last 5 months for me, have most definitely not been the easiest. But I'm still here so arguably, we're all good haha! But in all seriousness, things all just became too much and the  feeling of letting people down slowly began to eat away at me. It was almost like I just felt like I fitted in no where, no matter what I did or how had I tried, I simply felt like nothing slotted together anymore. 

Uni seemed to become less of an interest, my health dipped and I just felt trapped. I'm unsure if you can tell from my previous posts but I'm a girl deeply in touch with  the emotional side, and because I always strive to do the best I can, I became overwhelmed by a nonexistent pressure inside my mind and got lost.

 

I did what everyone does, and hid it because.. why share? 

I think what made me write this was the fact I finally felt like my 'lightbulb' moment had happened. At long last I feel content, and it's a big deal to be honest. It's a big deal because for so long I've looked through every single situation in rose tinted glasses, expecting everything to be the best it ever could be, only to let myself fizzle into pity and no self worth because it isn't all rosy. But it's fine - and very humanly to not do that. To expect little knocks and big bumps along the way,  is the only way you will find yourself. 

 

I have the most amazing friends and family, its unbelievable and I cannot thank them enough for everything. Understanding is key and it's a difficult to get sometimes but all those around me are another level lovely.

 

I think what I've realised over the last few weeks is that trying to be the person you see on the phone screen isn't you. You'll never be that. You are you and that's all you can ever be. It doesn't matter what size you are, what shade your skin is or what hair colour it is you have. Nor does it matter what team you support, what uni degree you study or what your favourite song is. Being you, and the best version of that is the most important.

 

Don't follow. Break boundaries.

Don't shy away. Stand proud.

Don't bottle it. Share it.

 

Don't be me. Don't dwindle yourself down to feeling awful after whatever it is you have arranged to be doing.

 

Ironic maybe coming from me but you only have the one life, so go LIVE IT!!! 

It's self confidence for us, because we have little we have to beat the barrier.

 

If I leave you with nothing else. Please remember you're all beautiful and go do you! 

 

 

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Love Megan x x x