One of the main reasons I was lacking in posts was because I started Sixth Form and A S Levels, and the idea of revision, and blogging regularly kinda scared me a little, and because I'd stopped posting, I felt worried to start again. I don't really know why it did to be honest, because after my GCSE's I thought could cope with pressure of focusing on more than one thing at a time, but clearly I was completely wrong.
The stress exams cause is actually ridiculous, I mean now, my whole career path depends on 100% exam, a scary thought I'd rather not think about at the minute, but soon I'm going to have to realise it, I sorta feel like at the end of the day, it doesn't matter what's inside that brown envelope in August, it's all about what I put into succeeding that matters. There is a plus side to going to sixth form though, I mean, I've learnt things I never thought I would even talk about, I've learnt that those who seem close to you, can fade out of life within a matter of seconds, and also that you're closest friends have your back no matter what - to be quite honest, I think that's the only thing which keeps me going, particularly when my planner is filled with homework (due for the next day!) Oh and there's the 50% discount on spotify! another bonus of being involved in the hardest thing that life will throw at you, well that's apparently what A levels are anyway...
However, there are so many more downsides to choosing A-levels; like the lack of free time, having to explain why you look terrible everyday because you got no sleep the night before, or that you're bored of learning about the latest topic. Then there's having no money, because all you seem to buy is ring binders and plastic wallets, then on top of that, you start talking about work even when your out with friends. It's all the small things really that impact how difficult you find it.
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I suppose, doing it this way, you become a wiser person, more accepting of concepts around the world, maybe of things you've never even heard of, so although it's a tough choice I'm so glad I took on the challenge - even if I have mock exams next week.
Going back to my poor blogging rate last year, I would like to say I am sorry. With almost 5,000 views, you would think that I would make sure that I stuck at this blogging thing even if I had a little more work to do, but clearly I fell at the very first hurdle. But as it says in the title of this post, a new plan means we won't be going back to that ever again.
So, from now on, I'm not going to be forcing myself to write about things that I have a lack of interest in, or just posting because I need to put something in here. I'm going to be posting things because I've took time to talk about things I care about, and I'm going to make an effort to post things regularly, but if I have nothing to talk about then I just won't. I think it's best to stop promising what could be and instead focus on what is actually going to happen.
So let's see what happens, but just a huge thanks for sticking with me the last few months and hopefully you'll understand why I've been missing.
See you soon, Love Megan
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